TMI...Too Much Information

It's hard for me to explain where I am right now. I know that my feelings and thoughts are a bit over the top because I am PMS'ing. More information than you need to know, right? It happens though, normal to every woman, and even every poor man, for surely he has been a victim of PMS at some point in his life.

For starters, I am a little nervous.  I have been catching up on my yearly medical exams. It began with the physical and blood work.  Thankfully, that all came back "remarkably good", except for being anemic.  However, that doesn't come as a surprise since I have been anemic all of my life.  After that, the next tests were a mammogram and the dreaded pap smear. It takes almost a week or so to get the pap smear results back, so I'll sit on pins and needles until I get the notice in the mail, or the dreaded phone.

I actually had the dreaded phone call on Friday regarding my mammogram.  I had just went in on Friday morning for that test and by late that afternoon, my doctor was calling me.  Therefore, I am a tad bit worked up. It's probably nothing to worry about.  My man has assured me that there is nothing wrong with me.  I am going to be around to give him grief for lots of years, he says. Goodness, I hope that is true! I have to go in for an ultrasound because of the "density." I would have went back on Friday but they said I didn't have to rush in (that has to mean something good?) but more importantly, the lab was already closed.  So, I'll have to wait until tomorrow to schedule that test. I have been reading different articles that say the timing of a woman's cycle can affect the test results of a mammogram. I am praying that is indeed the case.  I am trying to have only good, positive thoughts and not dwell on it much.  It doesn't do me any good to fret. I need to leave it all in God's hands...but, I can't help but think of it from time to time.

Then, to top it off, I have the most wanted test of all time scheduled for next week, the colonoscopy. Yippee!!! As much as I would really like to put it off, I can't.  I have the AFAP (attenuated familial adenomatous polyposis) gene and those tests are given more often than one would like.

Yet, as much as I get nervous about all these tests, I know, too, that I am so blessed to have good doctors and insurance.  I am so, so blessed!! I am even more blessed because I have my man that listens to me and doesn't get upset when I go on one of my PMS emotional tirades, especially if it deals with my health.  He is so much more positive than me, in that respect. I love that about him!

In the meantime, I just keep praying and hoping.....